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Inconsistencies

   (Enjoy my quick blurb of thought/appreciation post.) ;-)

      Inconsistent. 

    This is the random word I was thinking of this morning in how it relates to life. Life is indeed pretty darn inconsistent! There are plenty of rather sucky inconsistencies that have occurred recently. I go from working at one place and loving it to finding it not-so-great anymore and taking up a different side gig instead. My first two courses in college made me feel optimistic and achieved to the next two courses frying my brain and making me question my life decisions each morning. There are fun plans for the weekend that get soiled by SOMEONE having to do a last-minute dive Saturday morning... just to find out that the dive might be canceled, to find out there is another dive Sunday, to then find out THAT dive is canceled. Yeah, I am especially annoyed with Alex's inconsistent work schedule. But that is the transcending theme, isn't it? INCONSISTENCIES! For me, a hard-core goal setter, schedule maker, and perfectionist, inconsistencies really suck. They get under my skin. They just remind me I am not actually in control when I thought I was. They force me to take that slice of humble pie, sit back, and grumble as my plans crumble before me.


    BUT.

    In these dicey circumstances, this constant upheaval, this unwavering cycle of change, I am wholly grateful for the consistent love from my family back home in PA. They consistently laugh with me. Consistently support me. Consistently help carry the weight of my trials. I am blessed to have a crazy twin brother, two hilarious older sisters, and my mom and dad who have faithfully guided me through this frustrating world of adulting. 


   The "Navy life" can feel pretty depressing. People are constantly coming and going as the Navy calls, making it hard to establish solid foundations for friendships. Consequentially, I haven't had an easy time finding the interest in meeting new people because either they are moving eventually, or I am. Yes, I know, that sounded pessimistic. It is pretty sad, though, isn't it? But even then, my family is there for me, only one FaceTime call or road trip away, to give me encouragement, some sympathy, or that much needed nag to move past my introversion and get involved.

    I know inconsistency is not impervious to my family circumstances. Like every blessing in life, I have to hold them with an open hand. But, God has blessed me with this big family who has so far stuck together through thick and thin. I have learned to not take my awesome family and their consistent love for granted.

To Garrett, Sara, Taylor, Mom, and Dad, thank you guys!!!



Comments

  1. GretaOctober 19, 2020 at 6:51 AM

    Ok - so you have me in tears this morning. This is beautiful and so very true. Inconsistencies are so hard - but we need to be reminded of what stays constant - our Father in heaven. And He gives us a glimpse of Himself in our family on earth. And your family is a beautiful one - you are sooo blessed!!!

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  2. UnknownOctober 19, 2020 at 8:03 AM

    Adulting is difficult, especially when you've gone through so many major changes in the past year and a half - and then up springs global chaos on top of it all! You are right to be thankful for a terrific family support system - your family is tops! But don't be afraid to make new friends; who knows WHEN you or they will move? And maybe you'll find some great friends and end up getting re-stationed together. Keep the faith. :)

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  3. The Humble HomeOctober 19, 2020 at 3:01 PM

    This is so beautiful Grace! You are blessed by your family and I am certain your family is blessed by you! Thank you for these lovely reminders!

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